Tiny miny houses elegantly scattered the landscape, surrounded by and the ocean. I could see smoke curling through chimneys, while a brutal wind made pretty shapes out of it making it soar towards the sky. I could see clouds gathering in the far horizon, sailing across the canvas towards the setting sun. Seagulls, as white as the snow on the ground Flew around happily, flapping their wings, playing with every gust of gale, when the first snowflake settled on the windowpane, in between the bridge of my eyes. My heart skipped a beat. This was all so mesmerizing, little fairytale village.
Well, this is what i loved today ❤️ When stressed at work, I like to go stand at the window and meditate with the waves. P.S- my humour sucks!!!
Take me to a home embraced by the mounts, where trees can sing me lullabies, wind can mess up my hair, birds and animals to talk to me, and where i can enfold myself in the love of your heart Forever and ever after.
There are times when I am on cloud nine, " just like that" you know, the happiest, luckiest girl on this planet, I feel the things meant to be felt, and shed off the other. I challenge the devil to overpower me, because I know it cannot, and I come out as valourous, cheeky smile adorning my face.
But there are also times like now, trying to break free of the bars and chains mazing my mind. Feeling the "Manjhi, The Mountain Man" mountain weighing my mind and finding no resource to make a path, trying to be strong when I am not, when i am so blind that i forget to be grateful, when I repeatedly blame myself for not being good enough, blaming myself for not meeting anybodies standards, when my greatest wish is to go with the awaiting death.
I entered her room, an old, cute, polite doctor, she would diagnose if I was mentally ill. And there you go!! I was tagged as severely depressed. Baah! I still don't believe her, i don't want to believe her.
Mind is the only thing differenting us as human beings, now that is what i want to control as difficult as it might seem, Faith and love are the sacred things I believe in as of now, So, awakening my sublime soul up to challange that bars and chains devil is amusing.
"Don't you dare do that ever again", mama shouted at the top of her voice, I, startled, dropped the precious memento i had been making lovingly for myself.
As I grew up i heard more of " don't dos", my blaring soul instead of rebeling, always had the courage to murmer meekly, "Why?"
The answer i heard shook me to the roots "Because you are a girl, woman are supposed to do these certain things and not do the other".
The only thing i had ever known was that, i was a human being and not catogorized as man or woman, week or strong, egoistic or compassionate.
I stared dumbfounded at her face and felt my inner human withdraw into my shell. My mama, she is a strong woman but had been beaten by life, and now that it was my turn i wanted to stand looking directly into it.
I have come a long way growing up, Growing wings for my fantasies, Channeling anger where it was needed, learning on my own, getting slapped by the world, and keeping up enough strength to get up again and again and again.
This artwork - The Little Girl In Blue, is by the legendary Amrita Sher-Gill. Those big round eyes of the little girl are the reflection of my childhood. I have followed Amrita Sher-Gill Ji's works ever since i read about her in one of my textbooks.
People gaze in awe at my force as i pass through long white spruces. I love it here.
I get to enjoy every bit of variation in the weather, Be it summer, spring or fall, people love the cool breeze, come winters and i become horrible to the same who had embraced me Its like playing hide and seek, They have got huge coats outside and heats inside, but i can get in from every little nook that catches my eye. Hiding from me is next to impossible(giggles).
I can sometimes hear lovers whisper "Its because of you i am able to breath" Whoa! Its me who travels your passageways. No air and you are a dead meat, so, most important is i get to reside within each of billions of people on the earth and live with their stories,sorrows and happiness.