So my point in the poem is that we spend too much time running after happiness not realizing it is there with us all along. Happiness is your choice. Make it. Don't let situations dictate your happiness. Be it a heartbreak, job rejection, college rejection, divorce or kinship tie, economic hardships or even a death of loved ones. Live in the little or much you have been given.
Below is a copy of my poem if not visible in the picture.
If happiness could ever be touched, What would it feel like? Would it be slippery like a chocolate bar That melted in the warmth of your hands? Or would it be brittle like watermelon seeds, Chewed and thrown away? Or perhaps rough like rose petals Crushed in the sands?
What if happiness ever had a face? Would it look like the sun having its own light, And would be hard to stare at it with an even sight? Or maybe like the moon reflecting yet still bright?
@Griffindork Stay Blessed. A token of love for ya. You are so innocent and so pure. Sometimes you might feel lonely because of all the good that you do. But I will let you know this-- an eagle soars in solitude and you will go far. Just never lose hope.
Being humans, heartbreaks are pretty common. Starting from your favourite team losing the match, to the death of your favourite character in the tv series... Almost every second disheartening thing seems to give you heartbreak, or i'd rather say.. you term this as heartbreak. Before you even figure out what heartbreak is, you claim to have your heart broken more often than seasons changing. This pretty much sums up teenage heartbreaks.
And then comes that moment in your life, when for some specific reason you break down, you have no idea what's wrong with you yet your world falls apart. That moment when you even refuse to walk out of your room, when darkness becomes your friend and you begin to hate every bit of yourself, the moment when you actually begin cursing yourself. That's when you realise what the ultimate heartbreak is. You realise all the years what you were weeping for wasn't actual heartbreak, indeed those were elementary predicament scenarios that are absolutely inimitable with your current situation.
It may be for multiple reasons but the one that is constant for a higher section of the population is after you have lost someone whom you think you love, and who once claimed to love you as well. Yes, it's after a separation from the one whom you have assumed to be your soul mate, in other words something that this generation term as a BREAK-UP. Yes break-up, the second thing after death that is bound to happen and yet people starve for the reason which brings it. Yet, it is worse than death, in sense that it confers you with after effects so adverse where you feel weaker than you have ever felt, speak less than you have ever spoken, see yourself uglier than you have ever seen.. and obviously cry more than you have ever did.
This feeling, may be is because you both have planned your future together, made promises that are yet to be kept, have planned your honeymoon destination, may be even kept the name of your future kids and surely claimed to remain together until death. And suddenly a boom.. You are all alone while the other one is far from all this. You see, people drift away slowly. They don't generally knock on your door and say that they are leaving . One day you're with them laughing away, and the next day you know they have walked away like you don't exist anymore. There are no warning lights, no letter left by. Slowly one afternoon you realise they are not coming back and before you can even imagine, things have gone beyond.. You realise that face is only limited to your phone's gallery, that name only to your password and moments to your heart.
Doesn't matter how strong you have been in the past, this breaks you. Yes, this breaks you, more because you have imagined yourself to be the protagonist of the story and nowhere you have read or seen the protagonist losing at the end. We all are generally habituated to happy endings, and hence when you face such situations in real life, you begin to face a state of trauma and end up realising that fairy tales doesn't exist in real life. You start figuring out reasons why this happened and in a process of doing so, you start saying things to yourself which you would even want to hear from the one who hates you. You start calling yourself short or fat or dark or all of the mentioned, in an attempt to find the perfect reason why they left. Soon your showers start lasting for hours and sleep not even for minutes. Alcohols soon start taking over tea, and with every third drink you type that long text and the blue tick from the other side forces you to finish the bottle. Within no time, from the one who hated the smell of smokes, you turn into a chain smoker, and all this is lead by that one thought called "I have no reason to live" and yes, frankly speaking, you dont. You are all over.. no one can live with such negativity. All you can do now, is either kill yourself or stick to the certitude of happy ending and tell yourself that because you're not happy, hence this is not the end.
Before you decide anything, take some time. Take time to think what lies before you. Even the darkest days end with the sunrise. Whenever it hurts, don't just weep, rather observe. Life is trying to teach you something. Good times just give you pleasant memories, it is the bad time and decisions that build you, they are sort of stepping stones. Yes it's tough to forget what you have gone through, but at least don't dwell on it. But at the end of the day, it's all in your hands. Either you want to kill yourself just because you have lost what you considered to be your greatest opulence, or you want to fight, fight with your current state, your mind, your sitch, your surrounding, fight with your own self just to prove that you are still the protagonist, and protagonists never lose.
It was around 2:30 am I just finished bingeing my 9th episode of the day. I picked up my phone, while I lit my cigarette. I opened her profile again, I wanted to unblock her, I had been meaning to since last few nights. But what would I say? Sorry wasn't enough I thought. I thought how about calling her, I dialled her number, prolly my voice could compensate for the fact that I was being a jerk all through, I thought. But, it wasn't easy.. yes calling her.. it wasn't easy. Settling things, no.. it wasn't easy. Had it been so easy, then we wouldn't have spent months apart. I feared she would throw questions at me, and I had no answer to those. I didn't have the courage, honestly. I took my last drag, put out my filter.. set my alarm to 5:30, and closed my eyes, hoping she'd forgive me.
It was some five to seven minutes then I guess, when I felt my phone vibrating, I opened an eye, and well at the very next moment my entire body began to shiver. I never expected her to call, I never believed in the concept of souls being connected It surely was heaven doing me a favour. I didn't even waste a second, I picked up the call.. I didn't know what to say, but I badly wanted to listen to her speak.
*Kiss ladki se baat kar raha tha itne raat tak* was what she said, instead of a hello or hii, I laughed, *I am so sorry, for everything* I replied.. And the next moment, things just turned the way they always were. I never knew how communication could overcome all gaps. We talked, we giggled, we also fought a bit.. but nonetheless, we were at least talking like we used to. After a while, we even ended up forgetting the fact that we haven't been talking since months. This is what happens you see, sometimes the distance keeps on increasing because we don't want to talk about what is hurting us. The bond between two people weakens, everytime one of them smiles at the other and says "I am fine". We are always that one call away from making things right. I never realised how a call could change everything. I was happy, but at the same time I was cursing myself, If I would make the call a few months back,. may be I wouldn't have to spend all those sleepless nights. Well, It was almost morning by then. We promised to unblock each other and were really delighted as how things changed over night. We were calling it a night, I thanked her may be for the 100th time, cz had she not called.. we would prolly have spent another night trying to imagine what went wrong. "I love you" she said.. I blushed, my heart skipped a beat.. I thought I would tell her I will always love her back, just then I heard my phone ring..
I opened my eyes, It was 5:30am, It was my alarm. I opened my eyes, I realised all of it was a dream. Nothing changed between us, cz I never made the call, that I was supposed to make. I sighed, lit a cigarette, "Probably I'll again try calling her tonight" I told myself.
HOPE pic.self It was late afternoon on my way back home .It was raining cats and dogs for hours. Then the rain stopped. The sun peeped from the clouds shedding its glorious rays. and lo and behold appeared the beautiful and magnificent rainbow hanging like a beautiful bridge across the sky What a beautiful sight and a beautiful moment I reminisced the rainbow after the mega flood during Noah's days The promise of God to Noah when the flood dried up. God made peace with the world With the sight of rainbow. And hope came to my mind God still gives us the rainbow In the midst of human suffering there is hope and God still loves the world.
Thousands pour of rainfall drops halt and painted rainbow on the sky Sign of peace and hope to mankind Midst those millions human cry
In life when the forest of fear smiles at you You should know the only way out is through Glowing eyes lurking from the dark Stormy winds extinguishing my spark Giant roots tumbling me down Owl staring with a spooky frown Ghostly voices chasing from behind Fog of the night cluttering my mind Scary thoughts driving me crazy Nothing's clear everything's hazy When I felt like quitting and broke down in tears I decided to keep on walking through my fears Going back won't ever take me ahead The only option is to befriend the dread Mustering up the grit in my trembling heart I took the first step for a brand new start Path was lighted by the shining fireflies That lurked in the dark with glowy eyes Stormy winds didn't blow my hope away It steered me towards the destined way When giant roots tumbled me down I paused for a while to adjust my crown Owl still sat there with its little frown Only to tell me there's magic around Fog lifted from the night and my mind As I realised I've left the forest behind