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I am not professional writer. I just write down whatever i feel at the moment. Please don't judge my writing skills.
In this last part , I am going to explain briefly how i shared my love to him , he became my gem of happiness and many more things.
Last year of the college came with lots of happy tears and more curiosity about future. This year also opened my eyes and i realized i am in love with gem of happiness.
I was anxious about i wouldn't be able to see him daily , talk with him. May be there was fear of going apart from him. I wondered if anyone would make him happy as i've done. So many questions were in my mind on why i was affecting from leaving college specially from this person.
I took about 2-3 months to found out what he was actual to me. After knowing what he was to me , i wrote one letter for him. I believe love is something we can relate to daily lives. It was beautiful artwork. I came out of my comfort zone to told him this.
Kerala , his native place and my favourite state since childhood. I had learnt alot about kerala and keralians. As a child , i cut piece of new paper if there was any information about kerala. I still have one piece of that madness. I always asked many questions to my mom-dad about kerala.
I also wished to live there once in a while. I always loved kerala food and now i had learnt many recepies also. He came to my life in unexpected way. He was the magic.
At that time i didn't want him as my partner because i knew the cultural , age , looks , professional many more differences and majorly he would never say yes to me. I knew i couldn't be his best and last choice as well.
I said what i actually felt for him. When i gave letter to him , my eyes were full of tears with so much nervousness , i still don't know why i was behaving like that. I told him that i didn't need his answer but as we're humans , we can't control our emotion so did i.
I asked him may be after 3-4 days what he was thinking about me. He said he had alot of work and guests were came at his home so he didn't got time to think on it. He said he would tell me.
This college journey was ended. I got admission to another college for my masters. I really miss him there. Days were passing away with ups and downs. But my love for him was still the same. He was with me when in need. Everytime when i called him and he received it , my face had a different charm.
I talked with him about everything i had done or doing in this new college. There was always bit of happiness in me whenever he was around so i put his nickname as gem of happiness. He is too cute like the nickname.
Actually he has no clue about how much i love him. Even i told my mom i liked him and said if there was anything wrong , i would stop it. She asked me few questions on him. I answered them all then she said nothing.
I learnt malayalam , tamil language little bit in my free time. You can say me crazy. I was being better day by day. I gone to temple for 108 pradakshina every month for him as i believe in Vishnu Ji alot. I still pray and do malas for him every morning and evening.
As fear of losing him was in me. One day i texted him everything i always wanted to say and told him how much i loved him. He replied he was busy and didn't think of anyone or anything at that time. Obviously this was one big no to me.
We all have one point of hope for our dream come true inside us even if we deny that. I felt hurtful alot not because of his answer but from my own hope. I accept not everyone can love back. This was totally okay to be giver.
For me , the most important thing is his happiness as he is my true love. If it's with me or without me, i want him to be happy. I want his heart , mind or soul should be happy. Proud of him.
Maybe i can't love anyone as much as i do for him. I wish all his wishes will be full filled soon. He was , he is and he will be in me little bit. There's alot things i can't put in this story.
So after whole inappropriate things happen in first year , i was enjoying myself doing everything i loved. Second and third years of bachelor were literally amazing. I can't forget them in a lifetime.
I had more fun with my friends. Bunking class and studying in garden was amazing thing. We had group of four people after changed class. From the last bench to first bench caming up change was really good i can't describe in words.
I was more close to these friends and still i am. I was also going close to gem of happiness day by day without knewing it. People were aware of my crush on him. As i said earlier i can't hide my love/anger for anyone that's why may be they knew about this.
He is seriously greatest creature of God. I can't think someone can be this bless. My observation towards him was goning more day by day. I respect him so much.
When he entered into our class , almost everyone's eyes were on me with glimpse of smile on their face. I couldn't stop my laugh when they done this stupid thing.
Anyways moving forward ; i always awaited to gave little things for made him feel special and loved. I gave him gifts on his birthdays , handwritten letters , drawing of one of my favorite picture of him , chocolates etc. Before every time i gave anything to him , one thought always came in my mind ; what if he deny that gift. He was always there to listened my things. His concerned made me felt better. I felt extreme peaceful around him everytime.
Few of my friends didn't like it. They said he had affair with our one faculty. They also said i should have done this for someone else , for the person i was doing that things was never be appreciated and nothing would be came in returned. But i had never done anything for him with any expectations and ignored everything they said.
Mostly our faculties knew about my crush on him so they were tease me if topic on him came up. One faculty also told me if i were serious about him then she would go to him with marriage proposal. But also another my good friend from faculty was said to me , i should have stopped this cause he wasn't good enough.
She also told me disgusting thing about him in his absence. I can't tell here but i gave her good answer that put her in silence. I had never told this dramas to him.
I don't judge people easily as i know everyone have their own story. So i never judged him. I always tried and still trying to understand him more and more. My words can be bad but my intentions can't. No matter how much everyone tried to put me in doubt , i had always ignored them.
His colgate smile was everything i wanted to see by doing anything. The way he breath , talk , walk , think , see ; everything i love. I appreciate him in every way. Mole on his neck was attractive as much as mole on his hand.
His cap was cutest if i ever get chance i would love to wear that. His eyes were full of truthfulness. He was tough to understand in first time. His presence make my heart smile and eye shine.
If you ask anyone of my classmates about my crush in college time , they will be give you name of him. His hardwork , practicality was amazing. He might not seem sensitive on outside but he was much sensible.
This is how he became my most liked , attached person from just crush by being himself all the time.
Now let's talk about the whole first year of college. I learned a lot in that year. I learned how to be friends with everyone, how to improve ourselves, how to be a little more open and put out our opinions.
Whether it was a college freshers party or a friend's birthday party or going out somewhere with friends, I would never take part in it. The reason behind all that was i didn't have so many friends in school time, so i had trust issues.
I was introvert person. I had barely 10 friends in school. I was actually happy in myself. I did whatever i liked , for example drawing. I also had epilepsy issues so i didn't gone to school picnics , due to it i didn't have any special connection with all. But yes I used to take part in sports a lot.
In this college , there was my one school's friend. I was in his group. They were all and my one friend Riya had a big hand in making me bit of extrovert. Staying with them got me to know about alot things.
Attending college's every lectures , eating snacks at the last bench , talking about unnecessary stories , keeping nicknames , playing games that's all i learned from them.
Then there is the role of a person named Nirav in this story. He was my senior in my school. He is still my good friend. He is one kind of beautiful. In school, we just smiled at each other. We started talking about a year after he left school. We talked until 2-3 o'clock at night. He knew everything about me. One day as expected by our proximity , he proposed me to be his partner. I shared this with Riya. She said your answer should be yes if he was good to me. I took about 2 weeks to answered him.
I liked his patience then i decided to say yes , so i did one day before his birthday. I remember , he said it was the best birthday gift given to him. Like this we were together for bit long time. We met everyday in the evening at his home or parking area after our college finished as we both live near.
He encouraged me always to do my best. He taught me how to handle people. His care, protection and generous nature towards me was all i loved. Both of us planned our future together. We both met each other's families as well. He came to my college to meet me and my friends. There was a glimpse of jealousy on his face every time when i talked about Gem of happiness. But i was loving that. We were happy together. But it is said that if we're happy , something can't see it. Just like that we were gone far with misunderstandings and much mess up that actually was done by our own friends.
As he was my first love , i cried alot after we broke up. I didn't know how to handle myself in this negative situation. My this habit that i can't hide my anger and love for anyone sometimes put me into hard times. I cried at college as well (i was much emotional person) while i was saying this things to Riya.
She always told me it happened to everyone let him go. But i..i couldn't do that.. Then there's one person who noticed this all. Yes , he was gem of happiness. He asked me what happened to me and why i was crying alot.. I don't share my pain to anyone but i did to him. I told him everything. And he also said let these things go and focus on your studies ; tejal , i had broken up my 4 years relationship so it didn't a big deal. He said just focus on your career.
I tried to do that but i couldn't be able to done it for next 6 months. Things changing with the time. I wanted to be on path that gem of happiness told me. I had more focus on my studies and improving myself. I did everything that made me happy at that time. I travelled to new places , connected with nature , wrote down everything in paper , listening songs.
This first year taught me alot about life i was far away from. Also i had new vision to saw humans as well. But Gem of happiness had a major part in this situation where i found myself in dark place , he was the ray of bright light. He was truly the greatest gift to me from God.
The beginning of the first day of college came.The feeling of that day was something different when I first set foot in college.
New faces appeared on all sides. A different kind of smile was seen on everyone's face. All befriendin , introducing and trying to understand each other.
There I went to the class where I was supposed to sit. As soon as I went inside the class , I was happy on one side and scared on the other side about whether I would match with all or not.
I was sitting on second bench near the window in that class. There was a girl sitted next to me , seemed to be simple in nature. She started talking to me. Then I gained confidence , started talking to all girls sitting in the front and back. They're all felt good to me. I still have contect with some of them.
While we were knowing about eachother , All of our professors came to the class. Out of them ; Shivangi Mam, Aarti Mam were one of them i already liked in first impression. They were nice and sensible more than they appeared. They all introduced themselves to us.
But when I saw one professor coming to class, my heart was near to be broken. Because the man I saw on that day had now become my teacher. I still remember like it happened yesterday ; he came to the class with one hand behind his back , smile on face while entering into class. His that bright spark is still the same.
The curiosity to know about him did not stop. Our mam announced that meet Piyush Menon Sir , he would be conduct your english lectures. This name was fitted strongly inside me , i didn't know why. Then he told us little bit about himself. After this part , the professors walked out of the class.
The girls were sitting back and front of me , were very impressed by him.They said it looked like his lectures would be so much fun.
I just listened to all of them and looked out the window wondering why he became my teacher. Who doesn't get a kind of attraction from a man with such an innocent face ? Maybe it happened to me too.
But we came here to build a better future, so I just focused on that. I wasn't decided what to do in the future but i decided to do something great to shut the mouth of people told me i can't do anything. I had to do something amazing for completing my dreams as well.
So this is the day when I know a little bit about him and made new good friends. In the next part , will be talk about how the attraction towards him would going more.
So this is the story of me and the man who give me so much joy. You can also say it liking him alot or love.
So let's start talking from the first day. September 2016 was the beginning of the autumn season , the atmosphere was quite pleasant. I don't know why my mind was so happy and relaxed from that day's morning onwards , as if the peacocks were dancing around and the beautiful scent of the flowers was spreading.
I woke up in the morning like everyday and get ready. That day i had to look even better forthy i was going to my this lovely college for the first time with my mom.
It was probably 11-12 o'clock that day when mom and I went to college. Looking at the surrounding scenes, I felt like I was going to another school, but when college started, I started having fun in this place.
There was something different issued in the air. My mind had become silent suddenly. I had no idea whether I would take admission here or not. But I am proud of the decision I made that day.
Standing by the stairs in the side of the office that day, I saw him in a blue shirt and black jeans with a beautiful personality and I don't know why a smile came on my face. Everything seemed to be stopping together. His deep black eyes were as innocent as sea and looked like searching for something. His black hair seemed to be fluttering in the air like the waves of the sea.
While I was watching them, my mom talked about all the admission process that I didn't even know about. By chance , my mom asked him about where's the meet staff members.. His voice was just captivating to me when he answered my mom's query.
That day i had no clue how this person will be this special to me.
ഒറ്റ വരി കവിത എഴുതാൻ കൊതി തോന്നുന്നു. ഒരു വരിയിൽ ഒരായിരം ആശയങ്ങൾ കൊത്തിയെടുത്ത് അവ മഷി ചൂടി നിൽക്കുന്നത് കൺനിറയെ കാണാൻ തോന്നിപ്പോകുന്നു.രാത്രി കറുക്കുമ്പോൾ ഉമ്മറപ്പടിയിൽ ഇരുന്ന് ചുളിവ് വീഴാത്ത കടലാസ്സിൽ എഴുതണം.
'ഓ .. എന്റെ പ്രാണനേ , ദൂരെ ഞാൻ കാണുന്ന കുങ്കുമവെളിച്ചം നീ എനിക്കായി കാത്തുസൂക്ഷിച്ച ദിവ്യപ്രണയത്തിന്റെ ബിംബമോ '...??
തൃപ്തി വരാതെ ചുക്കിചുളിച്ചു വികൃതമാക്കി ഇരുളിൽ ഒളിച്ചിരിക്കുന്ന ദുർഭൂതങ്ങൾക്ക് നേരെ ആ കടലാസ്സുണ്ട വലിച്ചെറിഞ്ഞ് വീണ്ടും വിലപിക്കണം.
"ഒറ്റ വരി കവിത എഴുതാൻ കൊതി തോന്നുന്നു. ഒരു വരിയിൽ ഒരായിരം ആശയങ്ങൾ കൊത്തിയെടുത്ത് അവ മഷി ചൂടി നിൽക്കുന്നത് കൺനിറയെ കാണാൻ തോന്നിപ്പോകുന്നു"...........