I need a place to stay when I don't feel like experiencing the world as a reality. I want to drift away sometimes and have a child imagination. Carefree, happy, pure. But I am who I am. I am where I am, and I desire a solid ground after so much hardship. But it seems things have to go on. When I feel weak, I hope to have a comfort of my own to go through life with me.
I wish there existed a way for me to receive reassurance, that my future will turn out fine. But every day I go into the life that I own, all I see is what I do wrong. It is hard to keep living when some of the only strings keeping me on my feet is a possibility.
An ode to another end As I lay to rest another friend Poetry, I write it quite a lot I've written in notebooks and journals alike Time, I'm sorry. I know we've fought
Since December of 2019, I've gotten to know my newer life My newer home, and my new mind. So with that, I pulled out the fourth To my growing collection And endlessly began to write
Fast forward a year. It is the great 2020. I'll be writing about this year for ages And I'm still working my way Through the blizzards of February Trying to dance on the ice that Has frozen my prose and paces
I'll tell you this, I'm not good at ice skating I stumble, and am afraid of the blade Wondering if I'm too heavy, I'm scared the '2020' ice will break. I know it won't be a bad thing But falling isn't anyone's fancy I'm just trying to get comfy with my 'new' Before it becomes my 'normal'
I'm still writing in my fourth And I'm not yet half way done. I yearn for my memories to hold on to me The last thing I need is for my mind to run
An ode to... 2020 I guess I mean, I did want a slower life Though I cried for Time to move along It was me who was wrong in the fight So I slowed my pace to look around And can say with confidence, I'm a better person with what I found
I want to say that I have learned But I am far from a master Only fools are satisfied, So I demand myself I grow, But never to pace faster I'll be on my fourth for a long time But I don't intend to speed up My mind nor my pen won't go away And I'm holding on to my love
2021 is tomorrow, I'll stay behind for a while I'd like to admire the struggles I've been through The view will stretch for miles
And ode to Time in 2020 I've learned and changed for the best This next year is unpredictable I am curious to see this mess. But I will not try to alter my reality I will continue to learn and change And accept.
Until next time, but I'm not going to Spend my thoughts on the future just yet Meet me back in 2020 I'll be writing away my years and regret
I'm at the stage again Where my hands are beginning to itch At the stillness In my running thoughts I must let them exist in the world Whether someone ever acknowledges What I have to let out or not. At least they exist So I can go back to reminisce Or go back to grow Continue on from what I've known
I could build a home On our memories And it seems I'd live there well But I hope we continue Our home could be a kingdom Our time together will tell.
Just know that we are beautiful We match like night and day Even if the world lay in my palms For you, I'd cast it away My love for you is expanding infinitely And it has grown and grown It can be a light in your dark An eye in the storm For you'll never be alone
So, my love, let us give life to a world That is all our own
When life slows down I am walking down a hall Passing paintings on the wall Hung inside golden frames This hallway is neverending But my journey is tireless Especially when the sun sets And wash my memories with light Sometimes I need the illumination To find my way Though this hall goes straight It can be hard to find myself That little bit of light will guide me And I won't mind the times For the first time in a while, I feel alright I feel safe to look back Because I brought a life to my past And admire my present Without going back to live in the dark This hallway is pleasant now I can lean my head back and close my eyes Take in the light Take in a breath or two And I don't lose a second When life slows down, I can open up I can smile and fall in love I'm walking down a hall Putting paintings on the wall To walk by them again soon In the light of the sun Or the glow of the pale moon