I have this habit Of getting song Stuck in my head Then play it; On and on Repeatedly, Until it's Every word Every tune Every beat Syncs itself With the rhythm Of my heart And becomes The only song That plays inside my head Even when the music Remains off; And then suddenly It would lose, All grip on me And I'd start Skipping that song To the extent That it disappears from My playlist As if it wasn't there; ever. And the irony is I can never do this To people.
Summer ☀️ breeze spreading warmth like a mother to a child. Mellow as mangoes putting a smile on every bite or the taste of ice cream after sweating on the fields. The muse of the birds as they synchronize like an orchestral event. The yellow summer!
Autumn leaves fall as they mark the beginning of a new life while they turn into nourishment. The ground turns into different hues of fallen leaves that put a smile to face as seeing to the favourite shades and shapes. The orange autumn!
Winter❄️ air chilling to the bones and the feel of sweaters and warm blankets. The ecstasy of basking in the morning sun with a cup of coffee. The early dusks and late dawns making everyone lazy and a longing for comfort and warmth. The blue winter!
Spring Bursts as the cherry blossoms and the land adorns itself. Happiness bloom's in every corner as the families celebrate and come out for a picnic as they lay out all the delicacies and children laugh and play like there's no end. The pastel spring!
When we are not texting, i scroll up as far as I can to read our old conversations. I smile at our jokes, cringe at my typos, laugh at how I irrirate you, think of you more than I ever have. I miss you even when I know you're asleep or busy. You're no doubt my favourite person, favourite part of my day, favourite dream half asleep, favourite thought on my mind, my favourite everything!
You make me laugh, when I wanted to cry, You make me live, when I want to die, I never believed in 'forever and always', But the second i met you it became a proven fact. I never believed that we love only once, Because everytime I'm with you I fall in love over and again. You are the oxygen that keeps me alive. Your voice is my favourite music to listen. You are my heart that beats inside. You are the only guy i can see and want to see. I'm the happiest person with i'm with you. You are not one I need, but someone i plead. You are only one i ask in my prayers. If you live to be a hundred, i want to live to be a hundred minus one so I never have to live without you. I look at you and see the rest of my life in front of my eyes. You are my life. If I had to choose between breathing and loving you, i would happily choose my last breathe to say that, ILOVEYOU ONLY YOU!
The day I fell in love with you, my whole world turned upside down. I know, love is a beautiful feeling. You feel butterflies in your stomach, you fly in your own imaginary sky. You think about the person you love, day and night and you keep on dreaming about your future with that particular person.
But. Apart from all these, we do have some other feelings too. To be accurate , let's call them 'fear' ! That's what happened with me at that moment.
A fear engulfed me. I knew I fell in love with someone who is not meant to be mine. This can be told to mind, but who'll make heart understand this ? No-one can right ? Yeah ! My heart kept on beating fast with the fact that I was finally in love but my mind kept on reminding me 'that continuously beating organ inside your body is going to be broken down soon!' I kept my hand on my chest and felt my heart. It seemed as if that organ was trying to come out of a cage. It was happy , it wanted to beat for that particular person I felt for. Again my conscious mind spoke "Aren't you scared of the aftershocks of heartbreak ?"
I was in a dilemma. My mind and my heart were fighting amongst themselves creating a tsunami of emotions inside my whole damn body. I felt numb. I wasn't able to move my limbs. My hands automatically reached my forehead and wiped some drops of water.
I was scared to move ahead with the love. Because I knew he wasn't going to be mine. Ever ! I didn't cry. I couldn't cry. I felt like a stone. My heart stopped beating fast. My mind stopped screaming. My body gave up with all these thoughts.
And then love spoke "Love is a process. Move slow in it. If he's not meant to be yours then he's not written in your fate !"
I closed my eyes and those words kept on echoing in my ears.