Im excited, nervous and happy all at the same time. It is like a mixed feelings and I can't predict but you know Im just going with a flow. I wanted to share few thoughts on this day.
1. Age is just a number as true as they say, I can't believe Im 20. Legit! I feel I do hold a heart of kid, super sensitive. I still watch Shinchan and Mr. Bean. Cry a lot. Doodle weird stuffs. I always demand Ice cream from my dad. (That too the specific magnum chocolate bar) My eyes still lit up with icecreams, balloons and chocolates.
2. Im officially 20 today and I still don't know how to drive a car. (My parents are super concerned with my impulsive behaviour they would prefer dropping me in car or appoint a driver than letting me take the car) I can't cook well and I hold a biggest stage fear. (But you know what Im lil bit working on all the spheres)
3. I feel and Ive mentioned several times in this app that I was and still am a migraine patient and had severe deppresion during my early teen years. I guess I should not been so rigid on myself.
That feeling of embracing has came very late to me when I was 19, I wìsh I was fearless and cared less about opinions. (Folks listen to your heart but when it comes to carrier then do listen to your parents and experienced people)
4. Friends.! This word itself sound so secure and comfortable. No matter how old you get Real friends will stay in touch with you and others will fade away with time. Family is important no matter what! Surround yourself with them, love them, make memories with them because you don't know what life is going to bring things towards you or maybe it would be your last day on this planet.
5. At the end I would say, Live a little. Don't overthink of future, for now be happy. Do what you like, make your day a bit productive.
I want to heartly thank this app and people whom I call angels because you guys supported and were there for me when I needed the most. Never in my life I thought I'll recieve love from Virtual world.
I've successfully aced my teen years and sad that my mistakes won't be counted and forgiven easily emtionally as well as legally because that is only valid when you're a teen. Lol.
Im feeling blessed, I aim to be a much better person than ever. I really want to say yes to every opportunities which will lift me up. Im excited to learn more, evolve more in this journey. Buckled up to meet people more. Im turning more of my attention to Almighty because that's my meditation zone and spiritual peace. I look forward for being more positive as well as critically observing all the communications, social areas and negative things. I've set goals to wake up early, eat healthy, be in touch with constant exercise, do savings more keenly and above all embrace myself and love my parents a bit more.
Thanks for being with me in this journey. Sending my hugs and kisses, xoxo
As we're about to discover, my mind is still quite fixated on the whole Vikings, Valkyries, Valhalla scenario. In the following poem, I've attempted to portray the Valkyries role in Norse mythology. Depicted as tall, strong, immortal women who rescued fallen soldiers from the battlefield and took them to Valhalla; the Valkyries were honored and revered among the Vikings. If the title sounds familiar, it may draw to mind the famous operatic overture called "The Ride of the Valkyries," by the German composer Richard Wagner. You've probably heard it at some point, but just for fun, you might consider giving it another listen. At any rate, before I digress any further, I'll hush up and let you read. Thank you for doing so.
RISE OF THE VALKYRIES by Carolyn Glackin Oh praise ye woman, tall and strong Whose tales are told through poem and song Of blood and bones, and grain and grit And intellect of highest wit
There in the harvest of the dead To eternity, their souls soon fled Among the Aesir, true and fair No pantheon could quite compare
On winged horses, deft and swift Where sun doth shine and snow doth drift From north to south to east to west The Valkyries ride at your behest
On mountaintops where cool mists rise To grand Valhalla, in the skies With fallen soldiers, freshly slain The guides to thee eternal plain
Where Odin rules o'er all he sees In a banquet hall that's sure to please 'Tis here the Valkyries bring these men Whom in their death, are born again
Rise now soldiers, time to fight! Ye warriors of eternal night You'll fight and die and rise again As is the way of Viking men
And in between, you'll dine and feast On finest ale and slaughtered beast Your pain now gone, your body strong You'll pass the time with war and song
Oh Valkyries of valiant heart Their job now done, they soon depart If proof ye need, look to the skies 'Tis there you'll see the Valkyries rise. Copyright Carolyn Glackin 5/29/2020
This is not what you Wanted. This is what Was given to you . So treat It with the lightness of a Long time lover , my ma Tells me , When I complain to Her of the unfamiliarity I often feel Within myself for myself. Her words though true do not soothe me. No words have ever held Enough power to heal the immaterial. Burden I hold.
I don't want to be analysed,
I really do not want my heart to Be fit into an equation, Nor do I want my moments to Be weighed in a stone cold machine Tasting like metallic blood.
What I want is something I don't know how to ask For. Because I don't know If it has an existence even. I know That I want To not feel like a stranger. It is exhausting to breathe when Your breath speaks a language That is foreign to you . You tell me To move on to something better , but I Don't understand the logic of leaving Behind unfelt seconds to wither away While you plant something new In the hope that you can feel the beauty Of it. As though it is the flowers in The graveyard that matter more than The lives that lay hidden Like stopped clocks in its terrain.
It is quite a waste of time to Introspect in a world that revers the Extrovert but it is also quite a tragedy when time In itself is an intrinsic phenomenon that Couldn't exist if not for what out inner Self makes of it.
What do you want? Tell me. In clear terms tell me cause I have never known how To want in a world that Was just given to me.
I want to dissolve , Yes I want to take my irrationality and my Poetry and the music of my being And dissolve into the fiber of this Universe , I want her to listen to the Music she created within me as me And tell me the lyrics that she intended for me To add to it. And when she does , I would ask Her to tell me , the name of the silence That couldn't be held any longer and hence resulted In the creation of a music That's me
I want to know how It is that the pain of a child can be treated With so much love and understanding and how it Is that the pain of an adult be dismissed so Easily because It is assumed that the adult must know Better before letting himself fall like a child.
Why is the pain painted with different Colors Based on the years of the fallen? One a deep red, and The other a black.
I want to know if the joy That one allows oneself to feel Matter when it takes birth in a heart That has lost the map to Happiness altogether.
And I really want To know if there will Come a day , when The world that Has been given to me Will also Be the world that I Actually want.