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  • toxicpen 1w

    Yeah we were together and it lasted for awhile
    Took our time and even birthed a couple a childs
    But after life and growing away i guess it wasn't meant to be
    But those kids our always going to be part of my family
    So im tired of you checking my name of like some kind of hit list
    I am doing whats best for the kids as a dad and you need to witness
    Im tired of the games, drama, jumping through hoops its all bullshit
    So i am telling you i am not going to give up like one of your wishes
    So i am inspired i am not going to expire or grow tired just use the energy to just be humble and higher
    I am not going to fumble and fall showing all of my flaws i will encore after the curtain call
    Now we can coexist and be a united front for the kids
    Or we can continue being separate entities due to toxic validities do you get my drift
    Take a coin in your pocket and throw it in a wishing well but one things for sure i will still be living well
    I am not trying to make your life hell or ring your bells but sink or swim bitch i will fucking sail
    Acting like you are the better parent but shit didnt know it was a competition
    Just feed them clothe them and listen to them as they adapt
    Age to age and lesson to lesson and that's a fucking fact
    You act like your losing but i dont plan any attacks
    Just another way your chipping because its my plan for tact
    Show no weakness but im not wasting my energy
    Your the one putting on gloves trying to encourage a fight with me
    But i will show the kids a better path and just ignore
    Your high school antics is just leaving me bored

  • toxicpen 1w

    America I love you but ....

    On the civil war of history
    Streaming and viewing on the presidents conspiracy
    Threat of violence from the capital to streets
    Threats to the oppose like a terrorist regime

    How I steered my impeachment stories
    Before they try to steal all my glory
    It's a shame that black lives matter we choose to ignore
    They fighting for the same battle that their ancestors fault for

    Lately I feel like I'm in victims trance
    Fighting for allies that don't stand a chance

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh

    Driving the message that election is fraud
    Than March on the capital and attack the cops
    Spread out anger of how we feel
    Destroying america as we chant stop the steal

    At least I can breathe tomorrow and see more days
    Without flatlining by being accidently tazed

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out

    America, you're freaking me out
    With all my anger I shout
    Can't you recognize truth from clever lies?

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out


    -the menzingers the chorus
    I rewrote the verses

  • toxicpen 1w

    America I love you but ....

    On the civil war of history
    Streaming and viewing on the presidents conspiracy
    Threat of violence from the capital to streets
    Threats to the oppose like a terrorist regime

    How I steered my impeachment stories
    Before they try to steal all my glory
    It's a shame that black lives matter we choose to ignore
    They fighting for the same battle that their ancestors fault for

    Lately I feel like I'm in victims trance
    Fighting for allies that don't stand a chance

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh
    Ooh-oh-oh-oh

    Driving the message that election is fraud
    Than March on the capital and attack the cops
    Spread out anger of how we feel
    Destroying america as we chant stop the steal

    At least I can breathe tomorrow and see more days
    Without flatlining by being accidently tazed

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out

    America, you're freaking me out
    With all my anger I shout
    Can't you recognize truth from clever lies?

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out

    To these sing-alongs of siren songs
    To ooh's to ahh's
    To big applause
    With all of my anger I scream and shout
    America, I love you but you're freaking me out


    -the menzingers the chorus
    I rewrote the verses

  • toxicpen 1w

    Fuck my life

  • toxicpen 1w

    Chasing miracles

    the definition of insanity is doing the same thing and expecting something different
    But my heart is still yours like hands placed in cement
    I feel like I am chasing miracles down dark streets
    I will keep on chasing even though the future is so bleak
    I promised myself that I would be in a home with love
    But now I just settle a convenient existence is enough
    I know I would work my body to the bone
    But every empty gesture makes me feel so alone
    And I am so lost in the crowd of your own demons
    Mine are vacating because I allow them to be sleeping
    My needs are non existent because I am to content and afraid of resentments
    So I allow them to strangle me til they get their fill on amusements

  • toxicpen 1w

    I want to see you naked
    Not just the taboo of clothes lying on the floor
    Not just the sheets acrossed you skin
    I want to know your secrets
    I want to know your soul
    I want to know what makes you stress
    Measuring up your day leaving you depressed
    What makes your heart skip beats coming out of your chest
    Which side of the bed the right or the left
    What makes you go from 0 to a mess
    What posistion of my hands makes you at your best
    The darkness that consumes you and takes away your breath
    What suffocates you and leaves you for death
    The song that you swear is the reason your still around
    The goals and dreams that would make your family so damn proud
    Intimacy isnt just sex as the goal
    Its when your soul tells secrets that you swore they would go untold
    I want to see you naked

  • toxicpen 2w

    The way I love you is the way I wish someone loved me.

  • toxicpen 2w

    I whole heartedly hate the winter it's chill to the bone
    But I'm drawn to you despite you being cold
    I know its in your nature and I feel like cracks in the road
    Drained like the battery on my phone
    That lies on the floor for days with notifications
    Going unnoticed because I crave your affection
    I'd sell my soul to devil's just to get you back again
    But I have no soul left because I pour it out in pen.

  • toxicpen 2w

    The trials

    I made all these promises and I see it pile up
    Hoping that at the end of the day it will be enough
    To make us become one again instead
    Holding it together while Fighting the demons in my head
    I'll construct and dissect myself
    Find the flaws and place them on a shelf
    For the world to see so you know that I'm trying
    To change for your smile that spell binding
    I don't know the course but I'll travel all paths
    But just want the feeling that you love me back.

  • toxicpen 2w

    Felina

    I don't want to write anymore
    But the pen calls and i cant ignore
    Really wanted to be a honored physicists
    But I am just a broken lyricist
    So i sit back and endure all the pain that tranquils the bore
    Taking my life from core to core door to door
    Try to elevate and find a reason to keep pour
    My life feeling out onto this sheet but its so weak
    So i throw in some adjectives and fucks so its not to bleak
    Hoping someone will come across to just take a peek
    An audience with ambition themselves is what i seek
    But ill lay on this paper with no pen procrastinating all week