Treadmill
The only place I could feasibly be alone,
would be the moon.
Listening to Rae..
In my swirling head, that's where I'm sat,
on a blanket of grey dust, that's where I'm at.
Looking to Earth my feelings take flight,
there's one I leap and grab...
The cosmos is not taking that...Not tonight.
I imagine the people that make the world go round, yet in their silence I sit, with one perfect sound.
A treadmill of white and green and blue,
soon to be darkness, scattered lights,
a mind-blowing view.
Yet it's nice to stand back and be alone for a while, I'll take everything in, breathe slow, switch my frown.
I watch lights glow and dim and wonder if it's the reason for new lives and long rests,
a circle never ending.
Shooting stars pepper the night sky as people's dreams leave a sorrowful goodbye.
Is this why I'm here observing?
Traversing this space between what is and what could have been..
What is now, is a chance to really see,
that we need to be kind, as kind as we can be.
Dreams whizz past without a chance at all to be.
Off to somewhere, only they know where,
where they were never meant to be.
The thought I held onto, was why am I here?
Everything has its reason and this life we should never fear.
We can make our days fruitful or we can walk, oblivious to it all.
I now know why I'm here
and if I feel I should forget.
I'll go back to the moon
to sit on the grey dust to recall.
People are lights,
notice if their presence starts to dim,
as their shadows fall lightly,
seemingly invisible to all.
13th January 2021
Victoria Stokoe
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victoriastokoe
Original poetry by Victoria Stokoe ~Instagram ~ victoriastokoepoetry
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Mind bin
When bitterness becomes a normal reflex,
the mind shimmies straight to sour thoughts.
You become your thoughts and you become your actions.
You become the hurt that you've never caused.
You become the pain that keeps you moping, you are a reaction to someone else's
woes.
You become the burden and the bulb that's broken, batteries drained with no strength to recharge.
Become more mindful of your words unspoken.
Ditch the things that hurt the most.
You are worth all the weight of your heart that's golden.
A life unfrozen, with all your strengths exposed.
You are worth a life where negativity isn't chosen,
Shimmie to the mind bin with all the anger
and let it go.
Erase the last line,
WALK BOLDLY and focused to the mind bin.
You are worthy of this life, let the anger go.
Victoria Stokoe
12th January 2021
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Marcescence
You lost your shine as winter fell,
yet your crisp autumnal umber shades,
stayed to warm our days so well.
You cover as a jacket, warming
your beloved frosted tree.
A home for birds to nestle,
a perfect shelter,
against an icy breeze.
You cling to the year, the
seasons of your days.
You cling to the branches
as a mother holds her gaze.
Loving this place, this moment,
she never wants to leave.
Loving the laughter and the freedom
as her children run round the trees.
In Spring you'll want this freedom,
you just dont realise that yet.
With the warmness of the daytime,
100 years of umber leaf falls set.
And the buds of a 100 births are
emerging, fresh as a dewdrop day.
Until then you'll cling to the branches,
till you let go, floating down, on a
Forget-me -not bouquet..
Victoria Stokoe
4th January 2021
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Not the things
Shall I dream big
this year, 2021.
Shall I write lists,
become obsessed again,
with far too many things..
The disappointments
with the things that
I'll never achieve.
Life's frustration
is not an option
and my priorities
have certainly changed.
What's been missing
is not the things..
What's been missing
is the hugs and the
calmness,
that a long hold brings.
The faces I need to
see in real life,
not on a phone screen.
The people we've
protected,
stayed away from.
A cruel kindness,
it always seems.
Yes I'll still dream big,
as big is what I've been
missing.
Big is family and friends.
Big is kindness and new found
strengths.
Big is strangers, an ear to lend.
Big is people, big is our hearts,
with love to the brim.
Big is definitely everything.
Victoria Stokoe
3rd January 2020
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Tower
I'll take it with me.
The sharpness
of your tongue.
I might need it
one day..
To argue,
with a backbone..
When I find
I don't have one.
You crushed mine
heavy handed.
Left my soul
without its shell.
I'd scream the words
back at you
but only silence fell.
These words
became a tower,
on which I based
escape upon.
The spiral steps
would take me,
to the top
where starlight shone.
When there was room
no more for letters.
The tower toppled
and solace broke my fall.
You continued with your
shouting but between us,
words formed a wall.
What flew over it was spliters,
glass shards and daggers..
I got them all.
In a bag they clink and rattle.
I have your sharpness..
In there I'm sure they'll stay.
There was no need for them,
to rain down,
no need for them at all.
Victoria Stokoe
28th December 2020
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Year to view
I take my feelings with me,
I don't leave them as I should.
Some thoughts that float beside me,
I feared, wouldn't do me any good.
On the outside I am contoured.
On the inside a jagged rock.
This year has been a tough climb..
The view, a mixed bag from the top.
But one thing I am certain,
we made it, rose high above it all.
We're all here upon the plateau
and we're never going to fall.
The good times I will highlight,
yet the bad I won't ever forget.
This year has taught me plenty,
I am humbled by its kindness,
feelings of gratitude and
decent people at their best.
The meaning of life is so apparent.
I hope you saw it and kept a hold.
Because what I saw
still floats beside me.
With hindsight..
On new beginnings, I am sold.
Victoria Stokoe
28th December 2020
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New year Zoom
Feel the warmth of your fired eyes,
the glaze of merry in your slipper socks as window snow falls like cotton down,
softly on the cold night.
Fear not the ringing of the bells,
for it is the bringing of a new year.
Fear not the apprehension in your bones,
they shout to move, to visit, to travel,
to escape this weary year of solitude.
To leave behind the doldrums and the tears.
Embraces the echoes of ones we hold dear.
They remember how our hair smells in fondness, like yesteryear.
Spring steps us forward, thoughts of family and friends, the warm sun moving near.
Black wings of the hollow bird begin to lift.
Into snow fall she migrates from all of this.
You smile on zoom, it's been a good friend.
Silly screenshots we all need to send.
Goodbye. Yet I'll never forget you 2020.
The darkness starts to shift..
22nd December 2020
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Scribbles
The inner workings
of my mind
are corrected,
perfectly refined.
Last date edit
is all you can find.
No process.
No frustration
or doodles,
wasting time.
No crossing out.
No variant verse.
My phone is a book
without a jacket
or a spine.
I've gone too digital,
I create with ease.
The notes I may jot,
no one ever sees.
My poem after this,
will be raw with the salt.
An altered structure,
pen and pencil
but oh so perfect
with all its faults.
Victoria Stokoe
19th December 2020
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Placebo
I don't want to play
in this feverish metaphor.
Hearts of gold are not that,
I'd shared my bones
keeping limbs not to fall.
Melting to the moulds
and shared sparsely
between forgiven.
You crept from hell,
I smell the burning
under your shawl.
You have your coins.
One dropped by a devil,
sinned or sinning
doesn't make you wiser,
we know that you stole.
There's no replay,
second chances.
Aftermath,
sneering glances.
Molten lead trickles.
The layers of gilt
fool the foolish.
A placebo, like your soul.
18th December 2020
©victoriastokoe -
Institution~
2 weeks notice
For this is
the absence of
my soul.
For this is..
Darkness.
That reaches
behind my back,
flanked, rank beings
crass with hate.
Try to shape me
to their mould.
Eternal isn't this,
where light flickers
one dot of sanctity,
reasons in a dart.
A piercing spark.
I'm awake with a
stark headspace,
anxious to
vastness on a
blank page.
A random pinpoint
to a start.
Ageless in thoughts
I withered to oldness
here, beats lessen
in headlights
to fresh beginnings.
It took my heart I fear.
I'm frozen on a map,
grid reference only here.
What I've become in
negativity is not me,
ironic a pandemic
brought me back
from asystole and
feeling numb.
Shock truths that
loyalty isn't the
golden timepiece,
the badge of honour,
we all succumb..
A deep down feeling,
when your soul is
almost bared,
keep it secret, as
no one really cares.
©victoriastokoe
13~12~2020
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a_gentilischi 3w
Six pomegranate seed crowned me
as Queen of the underworld
Seeds that gleamed wetly
Like the open wound in my heart
They were blood red rubies.
The only brightness in this abyss I call 'home'
Now I am chained to a throne I never wanted
By the fruit of death and a vengeful god
- Persephone
(for those who are utterly confused: read the myth of Hades and Persephone)
#wod #seeds
#mirakee #writersnetwork
#thoughts #love #death #greekmythYours
forever,
Persephone.©a_gentilischi
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Mama's
Muffins.
My mother's muffins aren't like the store brought ones
With pink icing roses and a chocolate filling that runs.
But mama's muffins are soft as silk, and warm as sunshine...
Like the way she kisses my forehead. Utterly divine!
©a_gentilischi -
stillhoping__ 11w
There will be times in your life where you will make certain choices.
To give up something up.
To begin something new.
To eliminate a behavior.
To rid yourself of a person.
To change yourself for others.
To change your moods.
To be selfish.
Many more............
There may be people who don't understand your path or support your decisions.
It may be tempting to second guess yourself and fall back into old habits.
The work of motivating yourself is hard as hell.
But what's worse is remaining demotivated (powerless)
Feeling stuck
and
Living under the gutless rule of someone else's opinion of your life!
Making your soul strong to fight with your pain.
©stillhoping__
@writersnetwork @mirakee:-)
We're fighting with ourself each and every day!
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sundram22verma 26w
"You're always only one question away from learning something new about yourself. Surround yourself with people who will challenge you for all the right reasons -
to continue to grow, explore, feel & heal together."
©sundram22verma -
nonnahs 153w
Behind Her
Behind her writing is a broken heart.
But behind her writing is her beautiful art.
Behind her writing is a life full of mistakes.
But behind her writing she gets first place.
Behind her writing are questions on life.
But behind her writing she is finding her why’s.
Behind her writing is hurt and anger.
But behind her writing she’s no longer in danger.
Behind her writing is grief and sorrow.
But behind her writing there is still hope for tomorrow.
Behind her writing is a life that had come undone.
But behind her writing the best is yet to come.
Behind her writing is a woman that was hurt.
But behind her writing she is finally putting herself first.
©nonnahs 2018 -
nonnahs 30w
Dear Mr. Floyd,
I’m sorry, from one human being to another.
I’m sorry that you ever had to suffer.
I’m sorry your life was stolen from you.
I’m sorry that law enforcement of our country murdered you.
I’m sorry your family had to say goodbye to you too soon.
I’m sorry that you cried out for help and no one helped you.
I’m sorry Mr. Floyd that 46 was your old age.
I’m sorry that your last moments alive were so brutal that they are now replayed on the world’s stage.
I’m sorry that your life ended face down in the street,
I’m sorry that they ignored you when you begged, please, I can’t breathe.
I’m sorry that you had to be all alone and have no one to hold your hand as you were taken away from this life.
I’m sorry that when you cried out for your mom,
she couldn’t be by your side.
Im sorry you had to be alone and scared.
I’m sorry you ever had to beg another man for one single breath of air.
Mr. Floyd, if ever once in your life, you felt like you weren’t worth a dime,
Just know that your name has now been spoken by millions, millions of times.
I’m sorry for every second of each minute that you struggled to stay alive.
I’m sorry you ever had to beg another human for your life while bystanders recorded the evidence footage of your unfolding homicide.
I’m sorry that you won’t get to see what will be forever changed by your brutal death.
And I’m sorry that you won’t get to see the day that skin color will no longer determine whether you get your next breath.
I’m sorry that you are a casualty of this unending war in yet another horrific battle.
And I’m sorry that your name, Mr. George Floyd, is now on the list with others that should still be alive because black lives matter.
©nonnahs2020 -
sirisiri__ 51w
Alone but in a crowd
Silent but in a sound
Healing but in a wound.... -
mimi2235 33w
#icantbreathe #georgefloyd #BlackLivesMatter
For George Floyd:
I can't breathe
Those three chilling words
There ain't no safe place in the "land of the divided"
Every time I step outside my house
A target is placed on me
Always the same.©mimi2235
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asha16 46w
My drawing didn't come out good so please excuse it (love to draw though!)
#mirakee #writtingcommunity #poertycommunity #pain #heartbreak #sad #life #poetry #thoughtsWhy do I feel you're not taking me on
As if our wars have just begun
I'm feeling so lost and don't know what to do
How to make you come to your old you
You've started to lie to me at shut me out
Even tried to avoid me at started to shout
I feel as if I'm tied onto chains
While letting your toxic love run through my veins -
Bond trip
Loyalty went a long way
Until betrayal got involved in a accident
Now trust was dead
©6lack_ink
