Hey, everyone. Today's post is about me xD yes, you read correct- Me. I just thought of introducing myself before going ( yes, I'm going but for only a few months ) It's not like someone's very connected to me here who'll miss me but even so, why can't I drop a letter here before going ? And I'll explain the reason in the end or you might guess it in the introduction only. ;)
My name is Devonita Dev. Yes, I'm a bengali but I don't speak bengali as I have been introduced to hindi mostly. I'm 17 y/o and as you might have guessed I'm in XIIth grade. I have taken Science stream ( PCB ) About my likes - I love music and novels/books. One of my dreams is to meet the authors of my favourite books :") About me - I find myself boring and idiot ( seriously). Maintain distance as you might start to hate me which I don't want. :). I'm lethargic *_*. There's nothing good about me to be honest. Even so, I have friends ( I myself am amazed) I don't expect them to stick with me for a long time. Juhi, on the other hand, is the person with whom I can share each and everything. She is an introvert, doesn't go along with everyone, but idk how we stick together always ♡. She is my best friend and I love her more than my sister ( who doesn't exist, lol ) . But I've always wanted an elder brother but my fate :(( Its enough, I guess.
So now come to the main point. It's my last year of the school and after that starts the very crucial part of our lives - the career making path. I aspired to become a Psychiatrist but I have lost interest now, also its difficult, truth be told. But till 11th I wanted it. I lost my interest in becoming a 'psychiatrist' not the interest in 'psychology'. So I might pursue Psychology only, not the MBBS and then the MD or diploma. And also I'm more into writing field now. I know, I don't write so well. But I'm learning from you all ♡ All of you make me spellbound with your work. And because of this keen interest I now have two options - either to become a Book Editor or to become a psychologist. I don't know what I'll be but whenever I close my eyes, I see myself surrounded by books. I just love books :""). So yeah. That's all about me. And from now on till the 12th Board Exam 2020 I'll not be active. Maybe for once in a while. If you have any questions related to me obviously, you can ask me. ( why am I behaving like that *_*. Ugh, the dumb me )
And also, @colourfulgreys thank you so much, Di as you gave your precious time reading me and for commenting and reposting my posts. Because of you my words reached to so many people. I love you with all my heart. ❤ And thank you all for taking out your time to read me.
TRIGGER WARNING : You may feel too much pain reading the song dedicated to our, @kehta_hai_joker Bhaiyya. But remeber, it's not to add up to your pain, it's to show our love, how precious he still is, to us.
//Loving and fighting Accusing, denying I can't imagine a world with you gone The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of I'd be so lost if you left me alone You locked yourself in the bathroom Lying on the floor when I break through I pull you in to feel your heartbeat Can you hear me screaming "Please don't leave me" Hold on, I still want you Come back, I still need you Let me take your hand, I'll make it right I swear to love you all my life Hold on, I still need you A long endless highway, you're silent beside me Drivin' a nightmare I can't escape from Helplessly praying, the light isn't fadin' Hiding the shock and the chill in my bones They took you away on a table I pace back and forth as you lay still They pull you in to feel your heartbeat Can you hear me screaming, "Please don't leave me" Hold on, I still want you Come back, I still need you Let me take your hand, I'll make it right I swear to love you all my life Hold on, I still need you I don't wanna let go I know I'm not that strong I just wanna hear you Saying baby, let's go home Let's go home Yeah, I just wanna take you home Hold on, I still want you Come back, I still need you//
My share of words to him :
If only you could imagine the sorrow I feel for not getting a chance to know him. If only the other person could imagine what YOU must be feeling, as you were connected to him a bit differently. The connection you had with him is the connection I never had. I feel so dreadful not knowing how I should react? I don't know him, yet, I know about him through y'all. I, now, know : "He was the greatest person with the kindest heart." He was a ray of sunshine in each one of your life, wish I too were the littlest part of his life. People like him are rare; who first think of others then of himself. Who comes ahead himself saying, "Let me be of any help." Do you think this world's ever gonna have a soul like that - divine. Again ? I shudder at the of not getting to read him, again or to ever meet in my life span. It breaks my heart reading all what he did before going; making a family of Mirakeeans who will now continue his legacy of spreading love and positivity.
My dreams ( in the sleep ) are toxic Just like me. I'm thinking if it's related To what I think. I got the answer - ''Yes, a bit.'' But I don't want these dreams Whether or not it fits.
I want these thoughts Out of my head. I'm feeling disgusted, Don't know how to react. I have always thought what my three wishes would be, If I got the chance to meet a ginnie.
I know it's not real, But I've my own dreamland in my head, Yet the most occupied space has everything bad. And I've changed my first wish I want, I want every lethal thought to exhaust.
What should I do ? I've tried so much. I want peace of mind and nothing much. Whom should I go to ? Whom should I talk ? I think as if I'm disturbing every folk. What if my mind turns into a shithole ? Oh dear lord! Help me, I'll burn as a whole.
This is a dedication to my brother kehta_hai_joker. It's inspired by the Blitz poem he wrote when he reached 500 followers milestone (in just less than two months!!). So I write a blitz poem for him!! ------------------------------------------------------ STORY THAT'S TRUE Write a poem Write a story Story of hope Story of joy Joy of living Joy of togetherness togetherness of friends Togetherness of love Love for art Love for friends Friends are strength friends are happiness Happiness in smiles Happiness in strife Strife to survive Strife to rise Rise above pain Rise above shame Shame of judgement Shame of failure Failure to impress Failure to lead Lead an example Lead an ideal Ideal of truth Ideal of courage Courage to confront Courage to sustain Sustain the struggle Sustain the spirit Spirit to persevere Spirit to empathise Empathise with pets Empathise with people People need love People need care Care for nature Care for passion Passion for writing Passion for living Living to the fullest Living in the present Present is infinite Present is all All love is pure All art is true Ture are feelings True are you Feelings You ------------------------------------------------------ Also a poem he wrote few days ago:
Dear God, Let my struggles refine me And my failures not define me Let me be the hardest worker in the room But always have a moment to spare for self love too.
Let my journey be filled with ups and downs and crest and troughs But my face wear a smile whether the road's smooth or Rough.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR OWN BOX OF HAPPINESS-- KINI Here is a bouquet of wishes from us all!! ------------------------------------------------------ They have plans of which I am a part But I am still awake with the thought of yours .several PHONECALLs must be ringing you up to say happy birthday But this silent text is determined to pave its way out of mirakee to your smile જન્મદિવસ ની શુભકામના તમે પ્રેમ બહેન. આ વર્ષ તમારા ચહેરા પર ખુબ ખુશીનો ઉમેરો કરે છે તમે તમારા જીવનમાં સમૃધ્ધ થાઓ
I don't know gujarati but seems like Gujarati is sweet and you are the basundi For love never fades with garba When the music is love and rhythm is of global peace ;") You're the jamnagar no halwo Sweetest of all .
All the best wishes to you . And many successful years that are waiting for you. @_gonewild ------------------------------------------------------ We love you Kini, for you are our pride With love that never fades, a joyous ride Bombastic with care, like a soothing slide With blooming joy, always on the laughters side
To current from the first day With love beyond words can say For more to you we'll always pray And for your love never fades away
A blessing in disguise Like an angel to human side Blessed to know you and besides Your love, the laughters always presides A new chapter in the book of your life in precise
On a new page A change in age With a new stage Its a rise in gauge
Happy are we As this day we see Celebrating this scene On this ride along we be
Love that never fades As sharp as clean blades With a smile that always blends We celebrate this chapter as the previous ends. @pj_animation ------------------------------------------------------ Queen of Hearts A pure emotion A strong independent women Your words carry warmth You are one of a kind A writer whose pen's ink can never fade A friend in need Celebrate yourself For the love you define in true sense Wishing you a very Happy Birthday Stay always blessed Keep shining and smiling With lots of love and best wishes @sunenasharma ------------------------------------------------------ Your love can never fade For it is meant to stay for eternity Dedication and perseverance are your muses Fighting all the odds you've been valiant Warmth and care comes from you naturally As that's how you are, there's nothing to pretend Stay this way Kinni, as you are a gem On this Birthday I wish prosperity showers on you @the_speccy_outsider ------------------------------------------------------ Made of all divine kaleidoscopic shades Seeped in a love that never fades A kind, gentle, compassionate person Her beautiful face source of glow emission Her sensitivity has no parallel Her mellifluous poems scatter any cimmerian lull A sister, friend and daughter par excellence Intelligent, independent, esoteric prudence May this birthday add to her glory and fame We love you Kini, you are a pride to our name. @colourfulgreys ------------------------------------------------------ We are here all as one!!! Love you (it'll not fade) #pod 24-10-2020 #birthday_wish_j
My little dedication to my talented brother kehta_hai_joker... not as good as his poems..but a small attempt! ________________________________ A brother I never had To have you now, I was glad You have given me love and care Your light dispelled all darkness that was there You taught me resilience, endurance, and patience You talked of freedom, equality and peace among nations You read a lot, and wrote more creating magic out of words for you was an easy chore the best listener there ever was with you humor flowed without pause You inspired to know about all things under the sun to your brother, an ally and to your parents, the lovely son To be your sister, I was the lucky one I'll try to spread your message of love through the poems that i'd spun
WELL I USED TO SAY TIME HEALS EACH ONE THEN WHY MY SCARS ARE DEAD ALIVE AND WHY THE COGULATION PROCESS IS SO SLOW THAT IT HAS BEEN YEARS NOW STILL THE CRIMSON BLOOD OF EMPATHY IS GUSHING OUT OF MY NERVES FINDING A WAY TO HIS AORTA//.... @writersnetwork@mirakee
Thankyou @re_ms36 for missing my posts.. @inked_selenophile for a knock... Well i havent missed any of the tag these days.. Still if any one left unread..sorry for that
after all the late night talks and spilled juicy secrets the virtual kisses and fake promises shared by lonely strangers is that all? that was it? what went wrong? just like that you don't talk anymore. does it hurt? does it sting? or immune you became.
in this era and time love is one click away faking affection till you make it from falling in love to being dumped to tales of virtual romantic liaisons and online trysts is new normal and oh so familiar like a good old cliché.
speechless? shocked? feeling betrayed? ok, breathe and cry a little then mourn for your plastic love do not expect something that started with a poke and a wave to last a lifetime, up to the grave.
everything seems disposable the ugly truth is seldom exposed often faked and filtered hidden behind layers of limited-edition masks designed to please the love-starved.
one statement one killer line one wrong move the game is over before it began.
Oi. Listen up. Koi kahin nhi gaya hai. Dead might be the person. But not his words. Not his teachings. The lessons that he left behind shall remain etched in our hearts for over an eternity. Joker was an essence. A feeling. An enlightenment. And "it" can never die. Try and look beyond his words. They hold a meaning deeper than your brain can interpret. Hold onto those words. Learn. Crack the code, and once you feel like you've, don't stop there, but Preach! We all are grieving, but don't treat this grief like your in-laws. They're just like your bua ke mausi ke bete ke padosi. Do din khatirdaari karo, phir bagha do.
That person celebrated every second of his life. We don't and will never know how much pain he hid behind that "anonymous" smile of his. But at the same time, know that, he never wanted us to know. For he never wanted us or anybody to cry. And yet here we're, crying. He lived upto his words, his purpose on this planet is fulfilled, but do you want to fail it by shedding tears instead? Take your time, but make efforts. Human brain cannot take such a great loss all of a so sudden, it does need time, but let it not be permanent. We all have our lives to lead on and we cannot let grief to hold us back.
*START JOURNALING (Something Joe himself told me to do, and it helps!)
*DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY (spend time amidst nature, with animals, sports, workout, cooking, cleaning or literally anything you like!)
*THINK OF YOUR LIVES BEFORE YOU MET JOKER. Joker wanted to leave without a trace, as if he never existed. So how about we make this last wish of his, come true? I'm too desperate to get some of his posts, and a few last messges back. But what's gone is gone and I've accepted it and I recommend, you do the same. If you've his posts, keep them close to your heart and cherish them forver. Also, how about we think, Joker actually never existed? What if it was all a dream that lasted just a little extra long? Think of it as, you just woke up from a hilariously philosophical dream! How about we go back to living the same old life,
With a newer perspective towards it? - I'm taking a lonnngggg break from mirakee. But I promise, I'll be back, only as better. And nope, I won't ever stop writing. Infact, while I'm on a break, I will explore even newer forms of writing, various genres and make the most of my time. And I recommend y'all do the same. Don't "waste" your precious time people, use it constructively. And most importantly, don't keep your feelings bottled up towards your loved ones. Open up. Express. Confess. For you never know when life might play it's dirty cards and you'll find yourself saying, " If I had only known... " Uh-huh, don't let that happen.
Baaki, I love you people the most, all of my readers, friends and above all, my mirakee family! @bouncy (Happiest birthday love!) @hafeezhmza ( jyada soch mat ) @colourfulgreys (shaadi mei zarur bulana) @kin_jo (THANKS FOR EVERYTHING ❤) @sunenasharma (chini kam khaya kar behen, kitna meetha bolegi?) @/ the_speccy_outsider (Marathi madhye typos khup kartos xd, but mast lihitos, carry on!) @/ anush18 (DO I NEED TO SAY ANYTHING? ) @/ _maybe ( love you baccha ) @/ writersnetwork (tumne aaj tak jo kuch nhi kiya uss sabke liye shukriya) @/ the_blooming_skies (if anyone, JOKER LOVED YOU THE MOST HERE!!)
Keeping this letter simple, I want to say that you're important for me. Also, Your smile. But you don't smile that often now and this bothers me a lot. Your smile should be yours. Start smiling for no reason as you used to do.
Whenever I see your name on my phone, there comes a positive vibe. You carry such amazing vibes that even when I talk to you , I feel better, that's why you're the first person I call whenever I feel low even if I don't discuss my problems at that time, I somehow feel better. This is your strength to make people at ease and comfortable being around you.
I think of the old-time and I feel good that we became friends. You have affected my life a lot in a positive way. I was never a mature boy. This childish me has grown a bit over the years and the lectures that you've given me whenever I made a mistake has literally taught me a lot.
I guess this is friendship, to being around not only in good times but also to fight the battles that your friends are fighting.
You're the person I believe, is my family. Happy vibes. You inspire people. You affect their life as no one else does, Make sure you're bringing smile on your face, on my face...